I can be polite and I am good with following the rules
i can be funny if I get to know somebody really, really well
but that is it.
I dont know how to make friends
I don’t have a social life
I hate being in crowds
I feel uncomfortablle going outside
and I feel like after years of feeling rejected and then year of numbing out any kind of pain people caused me, now I am alone and I can hardly contain all those emotions inside me anymore. but I don’t know how to express these kind of things and I honestly fear I never will be able to being around people. to make friends. to have a family. to not be alone.